to move on is to grow

I'm having the biggest brain fart ever that i wouldn't even be surprised if a few kids in a 5 foot radius of me could actually hear it. this morning when my dad came in and woke me up at 6 i was initially mad before i realized that it was Monday morning..my favorite. the only reason I'm happy its Monday is because I'm that much closer to getting my paycheck on Thursday. since i took a week of I've been basically broke for days and it slowly killed me. random ADD moment but i really need to get myself a new bathing suit since my favorite one broke in august. i was looking at some of the ones in the Victoria's Secret magazine i have but they're waaaay over priced for the most part. i found a pretty cute one at target which i will most likely go back for. Lindsey is sitting next to me blogging about some concert she went to as a sit and stare at my screen biting my nails. yes i no its a bad habit but we all got a weakness..my is anything on my nail that i feel needs to be removed. the Asian woman at the nail salons hate me, i swear the only English they ever say to me is "you bite nails that's baaad!" now linking back to the part about Lindsey i can't wait to go to another concert. maybe ill go to warped tour again this year or possibly bamboozle, I'm not sure yet. i know I'm definitely going to XTU though in a short bus painted green (yea riding in style i know its OK to be jealous). wellll i honestly can't think of anything else with out my head hurting so I'm down for now. hasta luego

i honestly cant think of anything to write about today. I try to focus on school stuff but its becoming harder and harder to do. take a classic case of seniorites and mix it with the loss of a mother and missing a lot of school and that basically equals my attention spand and will to do things on my first full day back. i want to catch up with all my work and eventually i will but for now all i want to do is just sleep and hang out with friends. My friends and family have all been so amazing in this hard time and its overwhelming how much love myfamily has been shown. i usually write more but likei said i don't really have the will power so this shall be all for now (plus i have notes to catch up on).

Bad Decisions

Why do good kids sometimes make bad decisions with their friends? Yes it may be because of peer pressure but mostly its just free will. In the years between puberty and adulthood kids are constantly searching for who they are and many of them can be easily influenced by friends just but being around them. If your friends curse a lot you may start cursing a lot just because you hear it all the time. Plus every kid wants acceptance and if your hanging out with a cad crew you might feel you need to do some things you wouldn't normally do to earn respect.

Though for most kids its just their free will to do bad things. They choose to drink or do drugs just because they want to. Teenagers are all about experimenting, learning what they like and do like, but yes friends do also influence that as well. I have friends who like to do drugs and i love them and all but i don't like some of the things they do. According to this survey i should not be trusted because of my friends but i know better because like i said, its free will.

“The lesson is that if you have a kid whom you think of as very mature and able to exercise good judgment, based on your observations when he or she is alone or with you, that does not necessarily generalize to how he or she will behave in a group of friends without adults around. Parents should be aware of that.” How i act and speak in front of my parents is different then how i act and speak in front of my friends but that doesn't make me a bad person. My parents trust me to make good decisions even though they make not like my friends. I feel like according to Dr. Steinberg, parents should keep their kids on a leash until they go to college. Its absurd and ridiculous.

Freshmen Stress

I agree with a lot of the reasons stated for the growth in stress in college freshmen. For many of them, excluding those with full scholarships and those whose parents are loaded, college loans will hang overhead for years and i expect that for myself in a few months when i too start college. With such a bad economy tuition looks just about impossible to pay off and i feel like some colleges may lose out on great potential students because of how expensive they are.

Plus, once again thanks to our amazing economy, the fear of finding a job after graduation is also a very scary thought. The only benefit of this would be the fear causeing one to push themselves to achieve greater becuase in this job world you need every little advantage you can get.

Women having worse mental health in the survey only half surprises me. Women tend to have a great drive to achieve and are likely to try to take on too much responsibility and feel overwhelmed. Men i feel have the more layed back attitude but i think they eventually they realize they cant just cruise by and they need to buckle down thus causing more stress. Males have such a macho attitude but i know that they need to talk about how they feel just like everyone else they just need more convincing.

As a soon to be college freshmen myself i can admit that i am terrified about starting that chapter of my life for all the reasons stated. I expect to be overwhelmed, stress, piled high with bank loans, and scared of finding a job once i do graduate, if i do. But even with all of that i can't help but be excited to start my new life.

Athiests

"It is great that we live in a country where people are allowed to worship freely or, if they so choose, fully reject the notion of a supreme being." I totally agree with Sanders that every person in this world has a right to worship whomever they want if they so please. So why are the leaders of a religion based on treating others with love and respect, showing hatred and discrimination? They did nothing wrong and their reasoning of "intending to reach out to nonbelievers who may feel a little lonely or isolated" is righteous. If those with have are so shaken by the message but on this bus then maybe they should worry less about everyone else's faith and more about their own.

I myself am christian. I'm am not overly religious but i go to church and the important days like Christmas and Easter, yet this ad doesn't phase me in the least. i understand others have different beliefs as i do just they they should understand the same about me. Personally i think this could be viewed as a hate crime in a sense. Atheists believe in something different then the church so they want to attack them in a hope to get them to change their beliefs. Some ministers actually telling their followers to boycott these buses is absolutely ridiculous. The only thing worse then these corrupted ministers is those who actually follow such a silly command. Thinking of priests and nuns being the leaders of a hate crime is kinda funny because of their religious positions.

i had to go to religious education school for years and if nothings else the one thing i will always remember is WWJD. It stands for What Would Jesus Do and I'm 100% sure that Jesus wouldn't discriminate against those who don't believe in him and he especially wouldn't want his followers to do that. Sanders sums everything up perfectly when he says "Just remember that this is America, a land where people can believe whatever they want to believe and a place where even the nonbeliever has a right to bear witness to his or her nonbelief".

Common App

I applied to six colleges over the last few weeks but only one of them, University of Delaware, required the common application. Personally i did find the Common App quite easy to use and i especially loved that i could save my progress and come back to it whenever i wanted. It also showed you on the website when you completed a required section. But i did not go out of my way to use the Common App when i wasn't required to do so. I went on each individual website and looked up the application checklists and used the application provided. I feel like its part of the process of applying to college and it made it almost more special in a way to send each application with the school title in the top corner. Who knows maybe some schools will find i showed more interest in their school by applying specifically to their website instead of using Common App. But like i said i only applied to six schools so doing each online application wasn't that bad. i do suggest though that for those applying to many schools should use the Common App.

Beauty Bias

Appearance discrimination is probably one of the worst yet most ignored issue in my opinion. Young girls are put in a world where they think they have to look like the perfect (digitally retouched) models all over the magazines. Its bad enough they have to suffer through that through the "awkward teen" years but to have to go though that all their life is just ridiculous. Woman in positions of power who may be as old as 74 should be focusing their attention on our government not botox and hair dye. I wish it weren't true but i strongly believe that more attractive people will get a job over someone who is "lower" in the looks department. Department stores are the worst with that kind of thing. They need a pretty face to attract costumers so if your not "perfect" then they ll just keep looking.

My friend was telling me how this actress (possibly Sarah Jessica Parker, i forget) went on a talk show and made a video of her daily routine. She went through hours of make-up (with stylists), a few hours of hair (with stylists) and she took a picture of herself. This picture was also digitally retouched first and she looked gorgeous. then she did her own hair and make-up and took the same picture without any re-touching. she looked completely different and the host of the show asked her why she did it. She said her daughters were at the age where they thought they had to be skinny and perfect and she wanted to show them how much work and retouching goes into making the pictures they see everyday on billboards and in magazines.

If making appearance discrimination illegal will help then so be it but i don't think it will be that easy. You need to change the way people think or they will just be sneakier when they do discriminate.